The Butterfly in Me

Tonight I made Chinese.  It was LaChoy chicken chow mein.  I added a little ground pepper, some fresh celery, some soy sauce, and some teriaki sauce.  It turned out great with the white rice and crispy noodles.  I have plenty for a few days.  I had new chopsticks in the drawer that I could use.  I was using chopsticks by the time I was two on Oahu.  We would go to a great Chinese Restaurant downtown Honolulu and eat quite often.  We went back when I was 16 and the place was still there.  I love Asian Cuisine.  It carries me through in times of need.  It was so nuturing tonight.  There was ginger in the chicken sauce.  It was divine.  I think that I will make pot roast tomorrow.  I am doing my laundry tonight.  I did the dishes and took a shower.  My job is going well and the interaction with people is so very healthy and nourishing for me.  i get to be part of a team, and work with a community that has struggled greatly lately.  Kindness is accepted with much warmth and appreciation.  I am also starting to come out of my shell at my HOA.  I am speaking to people with dogs more and having nice exchanges.  Friendships have been many for me in my life, but they always end in betrayel.  I now understand why.  I will not explain my eagle eye here.  I have also dealt with extensive domestic abuse.  In Indiana, I was placed in three domestic violence shelters by police.  I will keep their identities silent here to protect their staff and clientelle.  I am not here to be "poor me TV."  I am just saying that I am experiencing some rebirth and maybe the spring holds something beautiful for this butterfly.  Jennifer