God is Good

When I did therapy, I always assumed that I had privacy, so I was able to go deep into the brutalities I had endured in my life. I created a zone that was separate from my abusers while still maintaining connection. I assumed that they let me have that zone to heal. It is not my belief that that privacy was ever granted. It made me have times where I had to walk away from their programming and indoctrination for years at a time. Then there was the bubble I created after I opened to channel. I was then free to explore spiritual realities and ritualistic abuse. I put the picture together, but belief has always escaped me. This new counselor I am working with is different. We are working a proven effective method of treating PTSD. We are using a workbook. He is MALE, so I can raise my voice, theraputically, and he validates me and does not revictimize me. The pieces are starting to come together, internally and externally. In these places I HAD to believe that I had privacy to work, I now know damaged me and my credibility in a heinously evil way. I believe that we now evaluate what is theraputic technique and what is theraputic ABUSE. It goes for therapist AND client. Now that I have blocked myself from the false belief of privacy, I am walking into true privacy every time I deal with my therapist in therapy. It will then radiate all throughout society. I just need to believe that this heart of Rinpoche has brought a healing reality to the world if you just choose to take in the rays of sunshine AS WELL as the shards of disbelief. Just start with, "You are all evil and deserved to be destroyed." AND " GOD is good!"