Weight Gain and Needed Form

I do understand things better now. I used to think I had no restraint because I started ordering pizzas and eating out so much in college. What I now know is that it is an energetic that has to do with people preparing food for me that is clean and palatable, keeping an energetic fingerprint in the economy, and just giving me some time away and privacy. I have actually lost the largest percentage of weight in my life than ANYONE ever has. As my weight advances to heightened stages, I now KNOW that the witchery around me will cause extreme (unprecedented) weight gain if I do not just eat what I need and CRAVE. I am under attack by every type of ritualism on the planet and the bloat of especially jew is HUGE. When I went down to Miami and Ft. Lauderdale to see my fiance's Bronx jew family on actually JCC land, I gained 40 lbs of water weight in a week. Now every time I get on a plane it accelerated bloat as well. I have come to a place that I will be grateful to become fully vampiric at one point, no longer consuming at all, and SLEEPING very well. I live a life of war at this time, but society of the whole world community would be HUGE if I was not excepting every single curse on myself. Once I get to my coterie of white males, I want them to be healthy and proud of their physiques, but, at the same time fully grateful to me and loving of my tortured condition. I will then be shielded and I will move into I space of mimicry where I can pare down to about a size four with a good combination of lean and some bulky muscle mass. As I carry this weight without bitterness, and my heavy backpack and bags too, I maintain my muscle mass though I am heinously ashamed of the heinous weight gain that cannot be stopped while I am in view and around people who are close and stalking me who are huge, and while I am enduring active chemical completely cruelly unneeded but sadistically enjoyed psychiatric torture. I ensure that MINE will NEVER have to do so. Akethesia reality with these torture meds will need to be endured by them a bit, so they understand the horrific feat that I have SURVIVED and endured at 500% sensitivity.