When You Want to Say FU, What Do You Do Instead?

 Codes and keys abound.  I must sit and find a way to peace in a land that I barely understand.  I am blind.  You are all so very sighted.  The deceit is thick and the vengeance on me too.  I must wade through the much and mire and find a desire to move in the right way to remain free of the clutches of your spells and mystical maladies in the everyday reality.  Manifestation of a new form is on the horizon.  I know not what that means, but I just type quickly before I forget the line.  I am doing fine if anyone has ever cared.  they have not and even worse.  I am cursed even on a day I said I felt I felt blessed.  I believed it for a while, but now I am back to the manifestation point.  Transmutation must be all that I do.  I must just stay away from all of you.  Toxic relationships are all that I know.  Maybe one day I will be free of this reality, but this is a war.  It is THE war.  It is the war against evil.  I am not a victim; I am not a survivor.  I am a WARRIOR!!! Dr. Jennifer K. Mayer 112