I just want to express my gratitude to blogger.com for allowing me to express my opinions for over 15 years. I have entertained many controversial subjects, but have been careful to maintain the dignity of this platform. Even when my first blogger account was stolen by an abusive male in my life, Jeffory Ronald Forrest (who also stole my yahoo mail account, but at least was unable to kill me or steal my banking account or rights), blogger allowed me to open a new weblog when I was finally ready. I also want to thank Twitter for supporting my rights for 7 years. I have had to journey into the dark land of sports and now entertainment industry, and twitter has allowed me to do so freely. I know the lines. I draw them, and get people out and off chemicals. If they do not want to do so, and want to just be big very dangerous babies with butcher knives almost literally, they hate me, but maybe it has provided twitter with some really good comedy about how crazy people who have "made it" in these industries are. Well guys, fame is fleeting, and judgement is coming. I was very dangerously attacked by Vietnamese children last night, verbally. When I got home, my Instagram account was suspended after like 3 days of use. I was only following 6 people and I did or said nothing that was offensive. I will not appeal this violation of my rights. I will just take it with all the humiliation and torture that I endure on a daily basis. I will just try to be good to myself today and play with my cat. I am excited to watch The Indy 500. I am tired anyway so I will probably sleep for at least a while today. I had to deal with the Mormon church issue in my life last night after the incident with these children. I let Mitt Romney know that I am going after the Mormon Church on a federal matter. They would not let me join if I did not tithe. I am only on social security and my undercover housing at Progress Valley Sober Living can attest to the fact that I was a good citizen, sound in mind, and I was on no chemicals. My goal is to take all their money and property and to never have Mormonism exist again. Part of my exhaustion was due to the fact that I spent 8 hours yesterday in my trip to Albert Lea, MN to celebrate Memorial Day. Family functions have become more and more drawn out of late. It is really exhausting. It takes a lot of concentration and active listening ability. It takes a lot of different types of cordiality and diplomacy. It also takes a lot of intellect to be correct in listening to stories and asking the right questions. Yesterday, I had to deal with the family way for real. First I caught my mother and another individual talking loudly about me and my writing by the appetizers. It happened pretty soon after I got there. I felt completely humiliated and disappointed and I just wanted to come home so bad, but I knew that I had to be brave and keep up the small talk and try to smile. I then had to sit as people cycled around speaking about their "concern" about different induvial. It is constant attack on that individual's dignity and speaks always about taking away their keys in some way. It is heinously cruel. I just stay silent. I listen to all play off of all, and I just try to be kind to everyone. I am sure that my family will try to get me taken offline for me just being honest today. I write this not to betray, but to have a voice when I really have none. Violations come quick in this city at this time. I must just keep my balance in it all. I was even made fun of for calling the police in this "appetizer discussion" when a car almost hit me the other day. I do not think that is funny. I went to lie down for a bit inside in a chair because I was exhausted, but I was awake and could hear them talking about me outside. They said that I say that I am so grateful, but then...They went on for about 12 minutes before I could not deal with it anymore and went out. They then changed the subject immediately and got all bright and shiny with me. Yes, I did feel very violated. Is it not something of worth for me to keep showing up when this happens time and time again? Was it not brave to journey 1.5 hours away to go to a function hours long that I knew this would happen over and over? Energetically it takes a great toll as well. Well, no on is listening to me, but I just needed to say that I have very good hearing still today, when I really should not. Please do not attack people's dignity around me by speaking of their frailty over and over and by assuming that you know what is best for them. I say this as an advocate for me and for all people who exist in a disempowered position in any way. I guess that is all. Enjoy your day. Jennifer
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