I am in a phase that it has become important for me to articulate, through writing, my studies and conclusions about Buddhism. I walked into the hallowed halls of my mind on Waikiki, at night, before the age of 3. I was tasked, then, with protecting The Dalai Lama. My actual prayer chord, as his top guard, came years later in Minnesota when a Rinpoche came to Minneapolis to me from his upstate New York monastery. My conscious thoughts, in the waking night, flowed from a well where I was warring against worldwide Satanism against me that caused massive depression. I was then prescribed mindfulness study through the eyes of Tich Nat Han. His miracle of mindfulness brought me the Buddhist heart. Emotion mind overlapped with thought centers to create a state of wise mind. I did not know, in the beginning that I was, and still am, a horrific torture survivor. A Rinpoche is a master who has become enlightened in this lifetime. The Dalai Lama is lower. The Dalai Lama is a higher order teacher for vast populations here and overseas. He is to remain seen, to pay for his karma, and Rinpoches are to remain unseen behind monastery walls. My Rinpoche is Cambodian, but his study is Tibetan Buddhism, thus his meditation is done in Tibetan. He anointed me with my White Tara that day with my prayer cord. I then took on the karma, first for him, then his monks, and then for all world colony. Paying for the sins of the world is a weight that is hard on body, mind, heart, and soul. That is what makes it true torture. When I went undercover in NE Minneapolis, he and his monks moved in down the street. He rode with me, with 3 of his monks for protection, in their ceremonial robes, on the bus. He sat next to me. I greeted him as Rinpoche and he smiled. When I opened to my sensations and world authorities, I began to see buses of robed monks at rest stops on road trips. Before that time, I studied the meditation technique of Buddha hidden in The Far East until more recently, called Vipassna. It is studied by mostly 3M engineers. It is a ten day course, eating only breakfast and lunch, no exercise, and no talking. It is a mindfulness technique that focuses on feeling the electrons, (called kalapas by Buddha) in the body, in an organized fashion until one disappears completely. I stayed the course and finished it on my first course. The process of disappearance comes from the reality of electrons in the electron field going in and out of known existence. Scientists, in a CA university, proved this fact more recently. My electrons, as I traveled through the realms of known thought became taught to just make people unaware of my existence, in a vicinity and as a reality. This reality was important so that I could rise higher in my evolution, starting a quiet revolution, and maintaining a form that people thought was lowly. I could contact and write, but I would never hear back from anyone. My life of being an different being of divine importance remained a secret in plain sight. My mind raised, my emotions dropped, and my wise mind kept theories flowing. When I meet different masters, I raise their ability, and they make me aware of my strength in their particular area or plethora of areas. I am intertwining with a Sikh master right now who can accept the chaos of a lot of information over a period of time, and, in the end, find order. I am sure he is seen as God in spaces for this extremely powerful set of gifts. I spoke with him, actually, but then began my telepathic discourse with him afar. He put me through the paces of different types of torture, checked that it was very painful, and saw how I reacted. I remained cordial with people causing me pain, and multitasked well. I agreed to his tests quietly. I have now come into my Zen Buddhist state. I had a Zen Buddhist master, shortly, years ago named Clint. He was fresh out of monastery and was large in state. He had the highly holy burn tattoos on his forearms that were a Buddhist phrase together (there were one on each forearm). They are the result of lifting a large pot of boiling oil and holding it there between your forearms for 10 seconds. I am feeling him with me in my silence now and he can see the sky, for real, in this time and place. As the pain comes through me, I feel a quiet sense of peace, and I feel actual serenity. That phrase and word has been so bastardized by the AA societies that have very publicly tortured me in so many twisted and dehumanizing ways. I now walk in a space to say that these groups are too sick too help anyone. They will harm and sicken anyone who gets anywhere near them, this includes families of addicts themselves. Court systems who go to that "solution" need to recommend a Zen form of DBT (Dialectic Behavioral Therapy) instead. The Zen Buddhism acknowledges torture and introduces the idea of transcendence to carry the individual to a clean reality as that person sees it. DBT makes clear that pain plus nonacceptance equals suffering. To stop the suffering portion of torture, is to be mindful and accepting in one's pain. Sometimes the torture is too much, and one acknowledges and fells the pain outright, and he still feels a state of suffering. It is an evolution that is real. It is not a repetition, for eternity that is fake. What AA says is, "If you walk and fall in a hole and get out that is one thing. If you keep walking the same path and falling in the hole, that is insanity." AA's relapse rate, publicly or in secret, shows that its people, and policies, are insane, and dangerous too. It is a cult format and needs to be used only for torture of the worst female sexual offenders who work in therapeutic and care taking fields. The DBT is an ordered way to study Buddhism that is acknowledged by university and therapy. The one change I put into that therapy is that the therapist will do it with a group of ten alone, and will have to do the coursework as well. Her share will always go first. If she is found lying, her license to practice can be revoked at any time, and she then goes off to prison and to AA for all eternity. There will never be a leader in AA circles, especially for torture. God will not be part of the discussion at all in the Zen DBT work. It is just the state of Zen, in real life, a student of the world will seek that a person can actually attain and find.
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