Diseased Sexual Discourse

It was very hard to get out today.  I feel sick and twisted sexuality coming my way.  My energy system stood out from conception.  I have dealt with child molesters and rapists since then.  To tell the truth, I am very sensitive to touch so I am able to give my partner what he needs, but until Jeff, I had never had a partner who stood out energetically, thus it all just felt like a sickening rape and molestation cycle to me.  Jeff did have issues, but his energy was elite.  I am sure his hands and body had been used to torture, but he was basically proper to my face.  Behind the scenes, and when I was sleeping, there was most likely complete deceit.  He has a schism in his thinking style that brings about a certain verbal wisdom in moments.  Around him, I started really having to deal with my scars from a female circumcision my father performed on me when I was 16.  My pain is pinnacle, inside, but I do not let most men I date or see know about it.  If you are sick and twisted, sexually, and you want to put it online, you can deal with Jeff.  I believe that he can address his torture of me, and also his conclusions about my character, intelligence, and personality.  He has nothing to be ashamed of, sexually.  I have never contracted a disease, and I am careful.  The subject of sex should not come up around me because I barely talk about it.  I have also been very kind to prostitutes, especially in Muncie, IN, but I have never prostituted, and I am sick of putting up with this sickening practice.  Most prostitutes are Wiccan and are horribly cruel.  Talk smack and you will become JACK.  If you don't know what I am saying, at this point, you should not be reading this entry.  I have no one openly fighting for me, in front of me.  I know what NEVER being validated by people feels like, infinitely.  This piece is not for "poor me TV", but rather is a FUCK YOU to all of you who talk smack and think it is okay because you are ...  Verbalize now, and Jeff will be in the water, and Jack will go behind the scenes and steal all of your intimate moments on film and send it to Mr. Grey.