Wandering Through the Woods

I am feeling so good today. I slept great last night. I guess that I really needed to get that last entry off my chest. I am thinking today of Bashier. He offered to do some publishing of my work about The Middle East through his family's publishing company in London. He was from Tripoli and is very gifted. I called him one night at about 8:30 pm and he went all crazy hostile on me. I guess he had a girlfriend stalking him, but I don't care. Be professional ALWAYS, or get out of the game. I knew he was not strong enough to deal with even my pedigree. Maybe he is in the wilderness out there. I am sure that he sees that all things have a purpose and at the time he was not mature enough to deal with the sexual matters that come up around me and my brother too. The last entry would have driven him insane. I needed to be my own editor to keep myself safe in community. So I deal in imagery with men so that they will stay away from my energy system and community. The demonic in you all leads to perverse immaturity around the idea of sexuality and energetic strength and illness. I give people privacy around the sensual and sexual images I get around them. I keep my mind on work, daily, and finding the comedy outside the tragedy. In the world, I view as a newborn in society. This leaves me in a place to see outside the shame and disease that has been programmed and bludgeoned into me. In that place, I do not hate my body and my face. I do not deal with weight complications, and I do not deal with rape. It is okay if you see that in me and react to it energetically. I am just an E.T. out here trying to find my way. Sex is just part of the project. People who speak cruel lies and rumors about my sexual journey will just be swept away by torturers and law enforcement for being the child molesters and rapists on all society that they are. I encourage especially white men to LISTEN to the words and conversations of white women and you will know that it was NOT you all along. They DO molest through you and take your notorieties behind the scene. Be clean and be mean and get away from their negativity and perversion ASAP.