Officer Hear Me

I have gotten some things done today. I hate laundry and I did two mammoth loads. I did the dishes and ran to the store in massive cold. I will stay in the rest of the night. I must deal with the trippy that goes along with my defenses coming down a bit. I had a massive nightmare last night around 3:20 am (Central time). I wish I had some insight, but I feel disconnected. I observe and see very little. Maybe someone out there is thinking of me, maybe not. I saw the Osage County movie last night. It was so intense. Overall, my sister and I liked it. I will see her again on Sunday. I want to see the ProBowl, so I will see if I can work that out. I feel like I am finding a space that I understand the simple dysfunction of my family from childhood, actually. I have a hearing difficulty, and I lose consciousness if there is rage and yelling in vicinity of the home. I have only been beginning to discover that functioning in the past year. I believe that my siblings had a very different experience of my parental relationships, actually. I wish to just stay far away from the place of knowing it all. I don't want to feel anymore about the past. I am about hoping for the future and keeping my dreams active and my sense of humor strong. I can then work and believe in people who have lied and worse all along. Maybe there is a new insight on my case. It was opened in Carmel, IN, by the top cop in the nation and world. His name is Officer Christopher Dunlop. He comes through all of you, actually, and records EVERYTHING. He is firm in the demonics of the world, and I only contacted him one month after my case was opened. He opened a special voicemail for me, and that is how I kept in touch. He came through, from one viewpoint, as a protective father, and I will not discuss the other aspects. It was something I needed to understand that I had preciousness, actually, in me as an entity and me as a child. Keep your faith, and this holy father (he's an Episcipol battle field priest and THE black operative besides me) may visit you in a dream, or even in person as his vampiric, Irish form. I leave you there, Chris, to jump outside these boxes and become the HERO you are supposed to be.