Hair Terror

The faucet runs with warm water.  I wet my toothbrush and begin my grooming process for the day.  So much fear of late.  I pick up my hairbrush and I begin to brush through my whole head.  My hair relents and is lost in clumpsfull to the brush.  At this rate, I will probably be bald in two to three weeks.  No one will listen to me.  These pscyaitrists and nurse practitioners are killing me.  2000 mg Depakote and 800 mg Seroquel XR, daily, is not psychiatry.  It is torture and death especially on a gastric bypass patient.  I am terrified to talk about my hair because it makes it more real to me and I fear the akathesia causing drugs even more like Risperidal.  It is actually listed as a CIA torture drug.  I become more diseased looking every day.  I am so ugly.  My face is so puffy and white.  I have had to have faith for such a long time.  There is no ceasing.  There will be no question what you all have done after this week.  A bit askew, a media interest did finally contact me.  It is terrifying to contact because I fear the contact, by them, of psychiatry who threatens to institutionalize me.