Time to No Longer Write About Family

I need to make a very legal statement here.  I choose to never again write about or show pictures of my family again on the internet.  I will also never contact my brother.  I have erased his number from my cell, and I will search out his email and try to do the same, but also there I will not contact.  I am just sensing a rift, but I have no confirmation.  Humor is not popular in my family and in many ways I can tell that my family really does not like me at all, but does deal with me and tries to use the word love when they speak to me.  My brother does not.  I will be polite at family gatherings and kind to all.  I, for the record, have never had a family member ask me not to mention them or to not contact them, except for my father after I did a very heartfelt and difficult amends to him for my 12-step work for AA.  I have respected that, but did see him once at a soccer game and did speak, as all did, when the family sat together outside the Vikings practice field.  I did not want to embarrass a very old and desperate man in front of industry people and my sister in law's family.  His abuse of me throughout my lifetime has been severe and I did document it in extensive trauma therapy.  He is a very sick man.  The rest of my family still respects him greatly and has contact with him, even unrelated stepfamily.  It is a very sick and twisted situation, but I deal with it actually very effortlessly, and this statement on the internet proves that.  I am also dealing with abusive upstairs neighbors in the same way.  They are being domestically abusive and abusive to me through their loud noises and knocks on the floor in their fights and I am just dealing with the management company to find a peaceful solution that does not put these neighbors on the street, while I am in full post-traumatic stress from two very abusive domestic offenders on me very recently and a very vicious rape.  I have chosen channeling, movement styles including yoga, Pilates, dances, and calisthenics, meditation, writing, cleaning, and cooking as my outlets for therapeutic release and I am finding it very successful, and my body and home are reflecting this.  Though I have cockroaches, my mind and body work is resulting in successful pestilence diversion (too much place of peace for them) with also help from the Chi masters at Plunket's Pest Control.  Thank you, Plunket's, for your peace even through death.  It is best for all creatures involved.  My cat thanks you as well.  His wellbeing, with my own, is my number one priority.  Staying in my womb space for a time is best, but I stay effective and very sober in chemical content and soul choices here.  Vie (Jennifer Karen Mayer)