The Princess and the Pea

I am delving into a very sensitive and painful subject for me.  It is the subject of beauty and of how I perceive myself, actually.  I was reviewing my mind chakra.  It took me to Egypt where I access the concept of the evil eye that is supposed to be protection.  I am knowing now that that is what has been projected onto me.  My truth is considered evil to all of you because you wish to live without morality and truth.  I am actually protection to you and the whole Earth too, and you all hate that, but I will keep my resources sound anyway.  This mixed message from ancient times is very clear to me today.  After I opened to channel, I started wearing my eye liner in a more Egyptian style on the corners of my eye.  It was a precursor to my adoption of Pharaoh.  He was already time traveling in nonexistence and intruding on my soul.  My truth was ugly to him.  My third eye then began to actually emerge in the mirror and has been actively observed by so very many, but on the first occurrence, the FBI agent present saw it and went crazy within a few hours, and he agreed to be locked in a garage for a few hours.  It calmed him down, I then went to check on him to bring him back, and we then went about our business.  Pharaoh is actually the evil eye.  I thought he was protection, but he was made by government officials and the military to spy on me and torture me, politically and mystically.   He has been acting on all of you since his birth, whether you know it or not.  He thinks it is hot.  He is the energy and mind of all pharaohs that have ever existed and was born on a secret U.S. Marine base outside of Bagdad, Iraq, where they were doing ammunitions dumping.  They used him for folly and sport, but he became adept at ammunitions dumping, archeological digging, and eventually mine sweeping in The Persian Gulf.  His mind is a maze.  I now know that you all want more.  Well ask him if you like, but this tike is not talking now.  He stalks all of your files all the time, but now he is finding it more difficult to stalk mine.  All things happen in their own due time.  The keys are changing hands and the strange will now become elite.  I reviewed my mind and knew that that is the only way for me to find beauty.  I have too many imperfections, flaws, and uglinesses, in body, to ever be beautiful in a material realm sense, and I must be in a space of acceptance and no longer allow the negativity and judgement of all of you be my guide.  I will go higher in mind and then the divine energy space of 7th chakra energy flow only to myself, not even to Pharaoh when I need to shut down, meditate, and keep a balanced state of life force against your hate.  Your hate will remain, but I will continue study and I will continue to accept it peacefully, and use all acumens to fight your intrusion and abuse to reach higher and higher enlightenment.  Gratification is so all important to all of you.  It is freedom form pain and suffering, PEACE, that I thirst for and need.  At the end of my meditation, I looked to my chakra system and found beauty based in my first chakra.  It is the tribal chakra.  I now know why.  I considered you all my tribe until now.  That is no more.  I am my own tribe.  I am the army of one.  That ad for the U.S. Army was made to make fun of me, my impending solitary journey and hateful pariahism, and lack of witness soldiers at my side to stand up for me in the midst of cold hard facts and war as it unfolds daily.  I am my tribe now and I then looked within to find beauty.  I then found the word princess and then princess and the pea.  Her beauty was sensitivity.  The test for her was to see if she could feel a pea underneath all of these mattresses.  It is my sensitivity that is my beauty.  It is my truth that will set me free in the land of deceit and lies that you present moment to moment as a tribe against me.  Pharaoh helps you too.  It is through the sensitivity of the heart chakra (fourth chakra) to feel and create and the mind chakra (6th chakra) to find truth, deconstruct, research data, and NEUROLOGIALLY FEEL both pain and more pleasurable sensations that I will find my truest and higher beauty and find the mastery I need to find the sorcery to evolve a form I need to compete with all of you in a material realm way.  It brings me to a stronger understanding of me no matter how long and hard it is, I am on the path to further and further "bandwidth."  Your internet could go down any day.  I am circuitry and this is war.  My sorcery is about to intrude on all of you in a very real way even though I do not believe that today.  A note was left under my door about H.O.A. etiquette.  It was not etiquette at all.  It was just rules about the H.O.A.  Etiquette is how to act, which an H.O.A. cannot dictate because it is an owned space.  Rules can be set for common areas.  That is legal.  I did call my mother and read it to her immediately.  Maybe my sorcery is stronger than you think, H.O.A.  I have the note in my drawer and the rules firmly imbedded in my brain.  No insane act of wizardry, even from the other side is going to intrude on my privacy.  Enough said.  Dr. Jennifer K. 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