Organizing Traumatic Code

I had a great talk with my nurse and my site manager today. Hopefully there will be some order coming to the scene. I think that pieces are being linked up, and my favorite doctor is coming through. I now understand his silence. It was advanced screening of my injury that he was afraid of. Invasive is not even a beginning of the way to describe it. You did great. I knew that I should just go. I was honest with my nurse about things and I am feeling pretty relaxed. I read my 2 chapters for my PE (Prolongued Exposure) on Thursday with my therapist. I have been thinking that I need to not get my peanut butter trauma mixed with my chocolate trauma. It is difficult to describe how the trauma has evolved through my life. Since I opened to channel entities, it has been moment to moment and SEVERE. Trauma directly from women has been off the charts. It began in a seminary when I was 4 and now I am 45 and I still deal with their cruelty. I am trying to keep it organized and I am beginning to start with that first extreme sexual trauma there in a beginning, middle, and end for this course of treatment. I am doing something that has never been attempted before. I am separating male from female and satanism from witchcraft. I will concentrate on female predation. I am doing PTSD study and treatment while I am in the middle of a war zone. Spiritual warriorship encases ALL parts of self and society. I must be brave to take orders well and to ORGANIZE all that I see even in the imaginal part of the treatment that goes on tape. Thank you mother for taking me to Target and Best Buy to buy my voice recorder. Thank you for that financial gift. It will be well worth it. There are some pieces that you cannot see and THAT is what caused your outburst yesterday. Just wait a week and see what mirror mirror you see in the mirror as you try to find dignity with that imagery. It is "Malificent." I am here to be queened ruler and unifier of all mystical and material "kingdoms". I am Aurora or SLEEPING BEAUTY.