Catatonic, Not Dramatic

As I work with the creatures of Smiley's, I am breaking down some barriers in my brain. Dr., I am getting today that it is a catatonic state that I display and am unaware of. It is that state that is "Russian Doll" during mostly sexual abuse. It is a state of exhaustion from too much sexual touching too publicly, that results in the eyes remaining open as I am asleep or in slumber memory. All memories in this state are repressed. Some come back later and some stay hidden away so that I can function. I do my best to record every moment, but there is nothing normal inside my brain. I have been very scared, of late, because I think I knew unconsciously, that this state was about to occur at Jackson Square, my very dangerous living quarters. I have just been shutting myself away in my room. NO PICTURES have ever been taken of me in this state, thank goodness. Becoming conscious of this reality will help me stay out of precarious positions, but it is still very intrusional every day. WOMEN are MASSIVE vultures and sexual abusers. I state here that I need women to stay away from me unless I approach for a matter of business. I have been brutally sexually abused by women and then they play victims in society. Their violence is NEVER recorded by police properly. I must use a spiritual energetic field to complete tasks and make connections. I think that I do a pretty good job. Soon this will be done when I am in a safe space with safe people who care. I believe that that is possible. I should be hopeless infinitely. I got the intuition that she slaughtered your whole family in Pakistan and is now raiding and slaughtering in small villages. KARMA will be a mother f**ker.