I Am Here

I try to just breathe.  I reach for the body beneath the surface.  It is me.  I am dead there.  Death is stalking me.  I must purge to live.  Experiences are solid beings that have tended to evaporate into thin air.  My mind can only handle so much pain.  People around me have become deluded and saw my story as a fast track to something.  My pain ceased to matter.  Betrayal bled my life of all that was left.  I now know that it is all real.  It may be tantalizing and sexy, because of its imaginal value.  That is okay, but do not forget that I am a human entity.  I feel pain exponentially, fo this realm and the next.  I have held in my glory with my pain and sealed my mouth shut.  It is time to open it once more.  The shards of glass around me reveal that the mirror that is me has shattered again.  I will speak in the WE and know not the pain I am revealing.  There is a minuteness to me and my aching body and mind dwell here, and she is kind to me.  I love her so.  She is infinity.  Boredom is part of the bag of tricks that masks the apathy in all of you, but anxiety as well.  There is an awakening in the making and you will not find it on Facebook.  You will find it here, in a special place hidden away.  I hide so much in my aching bones.  I drink in your pain as well and for now I exist only in hell.  What is real is beneath the surface and you may not remember the transgressions of the past.  I will no longer take responsibility for the evil that exists.  I have been blamed since I landed in the mother ship.  We were off course and we crashed.  I am the only one left.  DO NOT TOUCH ME unless I invite you in.  Please do not stare and be gentle when you speak.  It all hurts so much right now.  I will love those who I came here to be with.  I will make evil exinct in our zones.  The war is now and holy cow, I am bitchin and itchin for a really big win.  Fuck movies with sad endings.  I have used words in warfare and I have turned the tide.  The angels are raging with rightiousness for my names sake.  I am small and mighty is form, but I have swelled to protect myself from disease.   It is humiliating and shameful, but balance is returning.  Please understand I know you, but I may not say hello.  I am not cold, I AM WORKING, and my database is growing once again.  I fear all of you because you have cloaked yourselves in delusion and illusion.  It is time for me to serve those I choose to follow, and be a guide the storm that is coming.  Wait here and you may miss the mystery and your predetermined fate.  If you feel slighted in this lifetime, you probably were.  Do not serve the ORKS of shame and fear.  Stand up for your beliefs even if you sound a LITTLE NAZI.  Letterman, I have your back.  Maybe Brian WIlliams is your pinch hitter.  Let it all be as it is and just don't invest.  The crazy is rising in the female of the species.  Just walk away like nothing is there.  See evil and don't KNOW evil personally.  If a person raises her voice, you are in psychic danger, so just pay attention.  I will instruct as the time is fit.  Too much at once will erode the code.   Dot, dot, dot THIS ONE IS FOR YOU.