No Caring and Sharing Hands for Me Ever

 I woke early this morning.  I fed my cat and opened the shades for him to look out.  I decided to do the dishes.  I sat and channeled for a bit.  I do not really feel like going out today.  I am not going to go to Caring and Sharing Hands or the library.  I have a book at home that I like and it is so meaty that the read is going slow because I ponder sections and define terms and historical context of the passages.  I also do not want to be seen in any way as a person who abuses food charities.  I have volunteered and served meals in many places.  I believe that volunteering is important to society and to personal growth.  I was just going to go to volunteer in a different way.  It was to assess the need of that food support and shelter for psychiatric support from HCMC.  I really don't trust Mary Jo Copeland.  I don't understand why a charity that is Catholic, and thus I assume Catholicly funded, needs to run ads on TV to get money.  I find the ads very self serving for Mary Jo and I find her touch of children in them creepy.  With how paranoid people are in this community, she might just call the police on me because I wear a U.S. Marine hat.  She might not want to feed me because she sees me as fat.  I may not look ghetto enough for her.  I would not want her to touch me, and that might drive her crazy.  She might also have difficulty if I make people there laugh and enjoy themselves.  Because of her need to have TV coverage of herself, she might see an opportunity in calling in the Minneapolis Police on me because she is crazy.  She would then say it of me.  I just decided that all around my well being and safety is of the utmost importance to me.  I will just walk away, and not go there any day.  People on the street are a population that needs to assess their own needs and advocate for themselves from now on.  They are intelligent and when I see them at the library, they read quite well.  Resources there via internet, reference librarians, and texts can aid them in study, survival in this economy, and self advancement.  HCMC needs to not be used for a bed and meal service for people without insurance.  Jail also needs to not be 3 hots and a cot.  We are now entering a new age.  The economy of the United States is failing very publicly.  I look at the world through the eyes of baby and try to see the good in everyone.  I hope that people can just take responsibility for their maladies and realities and stop sending their hate and disdain my way.  I will now lay back down and get some well deserved rest.  Jennifer