Making a Mastery of Private Sexuality

I wrote a beautiful entry yesterday, but there are some dangerous predators out there who will use it to hurt me, especially professionally.  What I will say is that there is a necessity for safety in complex sexual unities.  A strong base of understanding a CORE and core belief of submission must exist in a dominance and submission relationship.  Past that, there can be safety to explore other "exotic" methods.  The most extreme, as how a commonly diseased public sees, is Sado Masochism.  This is very much a sight of The U.S.  Other countries find it calming and soothing.  It definitely ignites a shift and bolstering of the chakra system.  Energetic disorders can be treated by gifted savants in these fields.  I say that sexuality is spiritual CPR.  Don't worry "friend" you are still going to receive your gift of that New York Monastery.  People judge me because I have had torturous abuse, especially sexual, thus I should not practice or expound on sexuality at all.  The only safe relationship is a monogamous MARRIED relationship that only practices missionary position.  Well, I must say that I switched to a logical mind state a long time ago having to do with sexuality.  Once you reach out, internationally, these expanded means become natural.  I wish to use intellect to remove the shame.  I use solitary justice sexual scenarios to maintain a time of celibacy that I wish not to practice with any partner.  THAT is a very powerful choice.  I was celibate for almost my complete educational experience that was university, including my marine biology year abroad.  My time in Glasgow, Scotland, at The Glasgow Engineering College with their top student of all engineering trades who was a master, from Ireland, curbed all sense of needing to be touched.  It was not the time or space for me to practice any sexual relations, even kissing, in Jamaica, or while I was located by the sea that year.  My time with a Jamaican was a few years after university.  I dated Neill Marley.  He was Jamaican "royalty" and contained the gift of music for that colony even though he was deaf.  He was a Rasta to the nth degree, but had to shave his dreadlocks before he met me to escape detection here in the Twin Cities.  Rasta means male dominance decides body choices of mate like hair length and eye color, and application of any tattoos.  He demanded curtain things of me right away.  I heard what he had to say and followed in a military way.  I just say that now I find solace in the spirits of Sikhs and Hindus.  I do this remotely, and travel to these spaces with the right man is a dream of mine one day.  Intuition rules my day in this fashion of things.  It can be a healing art for a woman to be a proper sub to a master who has been defined by his sexuality all his days and has been drained to an amazing degree.  Be well, as Buddhists also look into their relaxing S&M practices.  Rinpoche from NY stay away.  Work in privacy with someone other than me.