Competition Keeping You Clean

I was exploring my responses to trauma and I came upon my strongest coping mechanism besides disociation. It is my extremely strong sense of competition. It comes from the reality of the quantity and types of abuse I endured, especially on Waikiki so young. If you can stare down a U.S. Marine at the ages of 1 to 3, you are set for life. The core belief that surfaces is, "Go ahead. What have you NOT done to me." I would endure with the least bit of a reaction that abusers could see. We are moving into a way. It is about to be an attack every day. This thinking style is very athletic. I am speaking of TRUE athletes, not ones who fake it on TV. It is coming soon enough: The lifestyles of the high and holy in hell made for TV.