Thoughts of the Day

I washed my bedding and my towels and a few clothes today. I did get myself up to The Fridley Starbucks. I ran into Mustafa on the bus. He is a Muslim friend of mine from the downtown Caribou Coffee. That is the second time I have seen him in 3 days. I haven't seen him in months. I back away from Chemistry today as I work with a professional woman in my vicinity. I finally revealed many truths of myself and my existence. I feel as if she will follow up on some of the data. I have been concentrating on my privacy and last night there was a backlash. I was so scared it felt like my heart would beat out of my chest. I used diplomacy and it is okay today. This has been an issue my whole life, but especially since I opened to channel spirit. I have dealt with energetic vampirism my whole life. I am not going to give in anymore. I spoke calmly, but said that I could not handle the situation for the person and I moved away quietly behind a locked door in my room. I will continue to be the fire and the pain. I am trying to decide who I will see, professionally. Some people are too guilty for me to continue to be nice and accept the lies to my face. I speak, telepathically, to people in my room alone and those with abilities are grasping how much I have been fed upon. I am trying to see myself accurately, but there is so much shame and loathing there. I fall just flat and I understand that I am intelligent, and that is all. It works in society and in my professionally because they all lie and never let me know that I am special in any way. Their guilt is apparent today, but I have seen enough of the "top cops" in all fields and so this woman today now understands the very cruel lies of generations. I will just continue to show up, and we will see the reality from there.