No More Back Stabbing

Keanu, I heard "Marry Me" (Train) on my ipod this morning, on the bus. It became very personal. I believe that I have to be careful NOT to tell people that I love them, especially in print. I believe that the alter gets closer to me as we approach a World War. Maybe not the men I thought would be those I would marry first. My marriages will be treaties with foreign lands, as well as sides of my personality. Some public, some private, some not to be. Many have disappointed me. I will not lower the bar anymore. These higher levels are VERY violent men. If all of their chips are not in, I could be pummeled for infinity and be promised for more sexual slavery. These upper echelons need to work together. I think that you are a bit of a switch to calm these men in difficulty. It is a POD, not a matrix. It is private time to learn true buddhist ways. Buddhists don't even have a clue about buddhism. I have practiced deeply for 25 years, but my defenses, from birth, are the practice in its essence. Everything can turn romantic in a moment and violent in the next. This is what I battle today.