A Lovely Birthday

I had a lovely birthday yesterday.  I am feeling rather fatigued today.  A door shut, but I feel like others will be opened soon enough.  I have been spending time quietly just existing in my apartment.  After years of not getting enough sleep, I am finally able to free myself to feel my duress.  My intuition is telling me that people are beginning to express their full on demonic.  Those around them will begin to feel fear for the first time.  A strong sign is a person just circling around in the same spot for an extended period of time.  Violence can break out at any time.  A group of these demonics in a small space can result in fires and even weather changes.  My job is here.  It is best I say nothing else about that.  I call on my male athletes today.  I am vulnerable to large men in my vicinity who I do not know and who do not know me.  A card flipped last night, and now I have no security measures in place.  I also call to people with abilities to encircle me in light and protection. Keep me safe, especially when I sleep at night.

If Chaos is Your Key, I Have a Place for Yee

I got up and out today.  Someone rang my doorbell and moved away quickly.  I knew to get up and go,  I came downtown Minneapolis and got a bagel.  I then went for PT and swimming at the Y.  I then picked up a Rx.  Now I am at the Starbucks in the IDS Crystal Court skyway.  I had plenty of points so I got to choose whatever I wanted.  I got a hot caramel late.  I know so little about coffee orders, lattes may all be hot drinks.  I am a little fatigued, but I am hoping that the ambiance of this space, and the coffee, will perk me up a bit.  My mother is coming back from Ireland.  She has had a great time.  She has called me about every other day explaining their itinerary.  I am now flanked by a Chinese intelligence agent and a turbo social work money agent on the other side.  There are sources all over.  I do encourage those who promote chaos in the economy and the ecology to cease today...As soon as I finished the entry both agents of change got up and left quickly and simultaneously. 

A Grey Day

I have been blanched by the days I see lately.  I wish to view people and places as a combination of colors and sounds, but I am stuck in a grey sleep for all eternity.  My dreams entertain realities of goals playing a song of heat and benevolent actors upon me.  I have little interaction with persons around me, and I feel like that is where I choose to be.  Putting words on a page when I am experiencing drought in my life, is difficult.  Today I search with sentences that paint a canvas with artistry that can find a beauty in the dim and dark.  I feel like the scary forces around me are starting to lose their power and authority.  I pray that this is the reality.  At this point, I stop with the flow of words on the page, and listen to the thoughts in my head and the feelings in my heart.